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So much this year, I don’t feel I have a place where I belong at the moment. Last 2 nights since I'm back in London I stayed over at my friend's hotel & house. My room is such a mess at the moment. It's my fault that I'm always too worn out to look after myself. I just want to escape from it. I don't like eating on my own, I don't want to cook just for myself. I don't want to fall asleep on my own...I watched 2 films, "Memories of Matsuko" & "Detroit Metal City", they were both so good. Memories of Matsko is about this girl Matusko's whole life. She died at 53. She got killed. When she was living with her family she was the one always felt left out in the family, because her younger sister was ill and always in bed, so Matsuko never had attention from her parents, but she always wanted her parents to be what they wanted her to be to make them happy, so she became a teacher, but she got fired from shcool when she prentended she stole money when her student stole money, she got herself in trouble to save her student. She then became a stripper to make some money for her boyfriend who are trying to live as a novelist who beats her up all the time from his frustration about his career, then he comitted suicide. Then she meets a new man who has a wife, she thought her and her man were in love, but when his wife found out him cheating, he left Matsuko. Her and her family cut off their relationship so she has nowhere to go. She always falls in love with someone, but she always ends up with tragic, she always loved the men who fell in love with and did anything for them. She was the one people always loved her and she was the one always made everyone smile and happy.... It was sad, but it was fun to watch.

I fell a sleep and woke up with a nice smell...

Breakfast... I haven't had a proper breakfast in Japanese style for ages. My friend got up before me she was already making breakfast for us. I woke up with the nice smell... I missed my mum.